/Admin DiNa/ is back with yet another scenario~

LAST TIME REMEMBERING

writer: Admin DiNa
pairing: Lilly (Y/N) x Kim Seokjin
plot: You spent your entire life loving your childhood friend - Jin. What seemed like a harmless first love before, now is making you crazy because he is dating not anyone else, but your own sister. That one night, though, is going to change everything.
words: 1000+
genre: angst

“Lilly if you could kiss three people in this room right now, who would they be?” Jimin asked, his eyebrows raised.

I blushed but decided to go with the flow and answered with the names that first came into my mind. Exhaling deeply, eyes shut, I whispered.

“Jin, Tae, Namjoon.” When I finally had the confidence to open my eyes,as always, my look stopped on one of them. Jin. He was just there, lips parted and eyes wide open and sparkling. I smiled widely out of nowhere and the eldest one blushed and looked away. I wasn’t sure about the others’ reactions. I was just able to look at Seokjin and take in his beauty and charm. My heart was pounding, my palms were sweating and my whole body was shaking. This was what he was doing to me…and then just as the sensation came, it went away with his phone buzzing in his pocket. I didn’t want to stare at the name that appeared on the screen but I couldn’t help myself and my heart fell. It was my sister’s phone number and a picture of her and Jin kissing.

The reality hit me hard as a rock and I coughed as if I was actually going to choke on the pain of the fact that the boy I’ve been inlove with for my entire life was going out with my sister for already four years.

I got up from the floor where I was sitting with all of the boys and excused myself to the bathroom. There, I just slid down on one of the walls and started breathing heavily trying to get over Jin for the hundredth time in my life.

‘Lilly you’re so pathetic’ I whispered to myself and put on my everything-is-okay mask as I always did.

It was already two in the morning when I got out of my friends’ house and headed back home. After I came back in the room earlier, Jin never came back and never called to explain what was happening. Everytime I started to worry about him, I was starting to imagine him and my sister kissing and hugging and I was shrugging it off as fast I was able to.

Now, with make-up which was probably ruined and hair messed up, I was walking on the lonely street and remembering all my memories with Seokjin, trying to not imagine anything that would hurt me even more.

I remembered him with me in the park, when I was around ten years old and he was fifteen, with his black hair reflecting in the light and his eyes sparkling as we were both lying on one of the big hills. His face seemed so real at that moment and I lost the reality completely.

I then saw him turn his head towards me, grass hiding in his long locks. He then ruffled my hair and I made a grimace. This day I made my mom put on cherry gloss on my lips so I could look cute for Jin but as much as I was trying, he was always seeing me as a little kid. Always ruffling my hair and making silly faces at me to make me laugh as if I was a baby. And I really was, then.Pure and innocent.

‘Hey, stop making this face, Lilly. You know, you’re not getting ice cream if you continue to make yourself look ugly~’ Jin teased me then and smiled as wide as possible. Even as a kid, I was realizing that he was extremely charming and it was making my heart pound as crazy.

I thought I had some kind of condition so I went to my mom that one day and told her everything.

‘Momma, why is my heart beating fast when I’m with Jin-oppa?’ I pointed at my chest and made a confused face.

She just laughed softly and put her palm over my heart. ‘It’s called love,cutie. Seokjin is your first love.’

I was really confused as to what the word ‘love’ meant but as time passed and I got older and older I finally started understanding.

When I was back to reality once again, I saw that I was one street away from my house. Exhaused, I was about to cross the small street when I saw Jin storming out of the house. He was pissed off and my sister was just as bad. They were screaming and all I was able to do was stand there and watch as she was hitting him and he was on the edge to cry. I couldn’t even move. That perfect harmony between them I was seeing for the past years suddenly seemed fake and unrealistic. Then their words became loud enough for me to hear.

‘If you wanted Lilly from the start why did you even began it with me?’ My sister screamed. I froze and wanted to just silently go back to my friends and forget that I even heard that, knowing it was not something I was supposed to hear but I just couldn’t do it. My feet were planted to the ground and I listened and listened…

‘I really did love you! And you were so obsessed with your sister. You thought she was better, you thought she had it all. And in that ‘all’ I also mean my heart. For f&cks sake, you thought I loved a ten year old child. This was how far you went!’ Jin screamed back at her and I wasn’t sure how to feel. All I knew was that I was sick to the stomach.

‘Y-you.. you really did love me and I know that but as Lilly was growing up and as she became more and more beautiful I saw you looking at her with different eyes… Don’t forget that I know you good enough to read by your expression. You cannot lie to me, Kim Seokjin.’

My sister was out of breath when she finished and to that Jin just shut up. That was the worst answer that my sister could get because he confirmed silently her fears and she just nodded her head and whispered something. I didn’t have to hear it. I knew they were breaking up at that moment.

I remembered all the memories they had together. How they got together. How the nineteen years old Jin was hugging my sister and how they were laughing together and how happy they looked together. And also I remembered how jealous I was back then and the worst of it all was the realization that I was still just as jealous. Even after this long time, I had that bad habbit of stabbing my sister in the back by loving the same person she loved.

I never realized that I was crying until I ran a hand through my hair and face and found my make-up smudged all over my palm.

I was surprised that I was still unseen by the other two people but then out of nowhere I saw light and heard a loud horn, so I turned to my left. There was a car coming my way and all I had time to do before it crashed into me was to see Jin run to me from the other end of the street, with eyes wide open and hand stretched out for me.

Funny how just watching Jin, my entire life flashed in front of me for a few seconds. And it was also funny that I realized half of my life was just Jin smiling at me, eyes sparkling and hair shining.

At this last moment, I smiled, aswell.

I stretched out my hand,too, then and that was the last thing I did.